When I was 19 I watched my father die of cancer . Literally, I watched him take his last breath, gag, a low gurgle and that was it. I was just staring at him, unable to say anything. The rest of my family were able to say goodbye and "I love you", but all I could do was just stare and watch his lips turn blue and his face turn ashen white . 7 years later I still will have some bad days when I regret so much for not saying anything. You will always be sad when you lose someone close, but you can't let that sadness consume you. Death is a part of life, but life is for the living. I keep my dad alive in my thoughts. You never get completely over sadness, you just learn not to dwell too long under its dark clouds because there is so much glorious life for you to live and so many wonderful people for you to share it with. Waiting the sun's rays that will brighten my day when I get mired in the darkness of sorrow's shadow.
GOB BLESS YOU ,DAD .
مرسلة من AHMADZ (رقم العضويه 82918) on :
may he rest in peace
مرسلة من - ba7eb_fghramak - (رقم العضويه 37633) on :
im so sorry sam .... may god bless his soul
مرسلة من Barbie Girl (رقم العضويه 16155) on :
God Sam, yes we do...
رد مقتبس:7 years later I still will have some bad days when I regret so much for not saying anything.
well i said "I love u" like thousands of times and I feel i didn't say enough, I have tons of pic.s for us 2gather and I still regret that i didn't take more..
It doesn't really matter Sam coz It's never enough...
رد مقتبس: you can't let that sadness consume you. Death is a part of life, but life is for the living. I keep my dad alive in my thoughts
That's exactly what I'm trying to do
Allah yer7amo, he's defiantly in a better place, he must have suffered a lot with the cancer, what a horrible disease
I understand this coz my dad died in the hospital, but not out of cancer, and Thank Allah he died peacefully before going to a coma with all its drama..Allah yer7amo
May God bless ur father's soul
Thanks alot Sam for sharing this
مرسلة من XDj KhaledX (رقم العضويه 30418) on :
الله يرحمو لبيك يا سام والله يقويك يارب صعب واحد لما يخسر امو او بيو شي صعب صعب صعب من يوم ما مات بي وبحس حياتي ناقصه لانو من بعدو تكسرت
الله يقويك حاول تتذكر احلى ذكريات و حاول تتذكر كلام حلو يلي يقلك ممكن رح يخليك شوي تحب الحايه
يخرب عقلكم رح تبكوني
مرسلة من mISS JORDAN (رقم العضويه 19623) on :
الله يرحمو ويرحم الجميع بدون شي نفسيتي بالحضيض هالفترة ليش هالمواضيع دخيلكم
باربي جيرل الله يرحم والدك و يعوضكم خير عنو .. انا بابا توفى وعمري 9 سنين و يوميا ببالي .. مرسلة من عاشقه رويدا عطيه (رقم العضويه 84877) on :
مرسلة من [ رومانسيه اليسسا ] (رقم العضويه 83636) on :
may he rest in peace
مرسلة من / R@MI / (رقم العضويه 14086) on :
Sam Omari قطعتلي قلبي ، لكن الدنيا بتدور و كلنا راح نموت ... هم السابقون و نحن اللاحقون ، ربنا يرحمه و يغفرلهـ و يجعله من عبيده الصالحين
مرسلة من Sam Omari (رقم العضويه 86964) on :
مرسلة من / NaYeF / (رقم العضويه 18421) on :
May he rest in peace, & Take care of urself, and don't forget to tell all people u love, that u love them whenever u get a chance for that, it doesn't matter to say it when they r in trouble no just say it in all times, cuz the people who u love, they deserve to hear it ..
Good Luck Sam
مرسلة من Sam Omari (رقم العضويه 86964) on :
Nayef I like to watch the people I love, slyly, from the corner of my eye. I like to watch their facial expressions change: sadness. . . delight. I like to give them things and make them remember me. Those people, I'd follow them forever, and all that time, they'd never know why I was smiling.Because I'm usually too afraid to tell them .
ummm ,all in all ,it's always a good idea to tell people you love them if you do.
I'm working on it.. thx nayef.
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مرسلة من Becksology (رقم العضويه 37651) on :
it is similar to my story Sam I lost my dad 3 years ago. cancer too. it was a sudden loss actually
i had a difficult childhood with my dad (a military man), but at adulthood he changed a lot and i changed too. we became best friends but halas he passed away when i needed him most
I was holding his head when he took his last breath, i remember it very well, every songle detail adn even the smell of the blood he was returning from his stomach and i was cleaning with a red towel
i miss him to death and need him more than anyone else but it is destiny u cannot fight i do regret not saying i love u dad, and i regret been a stubborn child but i know the last precious and priceless three years we had will never part my heart
and what is even worse is not having one single picture with him
thank u for this thread god bless them all
[ أغسطس 01, 2009, 09:47 PM: تم تحرير المشاركه من قبل: Becksology ]
مرسلة من Sam Omari (رقم العضويه 86964) on :
becksology
May god bless your father . I was incredibly saddened to hear your story.
مرسلة من mr forever (رقم العضويه 20359) on :
البقية بحياتكم كلكم
i do believe your dad pretty much knew wat you wanted to say and he DOES forgive you for not saying anthing
i wouldnt know wat to say either مرسلة من Uptown Girl (رقم العضويه 19696) on :
I'm sorry for your loss Sam
That was so hard what you had to go through.. I'm really sorry to hear that.
I lost my mom to cancer too. The good thing is she didn't suffer for long but I didn't get the chance to say goodbye or anything.. it was very sudden
And I actually have a lot to regret.. specially the last time I saw her and last time I talked to her. But I'm sure she knows how much I love her. As I'm sure your dad knows you love him.
I know how you feel. It's like something is broken and you can't fix it.
There's nothing and no one to fill that void.
But as you said life goes on.. there will always be those bad days but life goes on.
الله يرحمه ويرحم جميع موتانا مرسلة من •[• eLis$Ssa •]• (رقم العضويه 83776) on :
مابعرف شو بدي أحكي الله يرحمهم جميعاً أنا كمان بكره هالمرض كتير أعز ناس شفتهم بموتو ادام عيوني ماعرفت اعمل شي كنت حابة اعمل المستحيل ليشفو بس الظاهر مكتوبلهم هيك الله يرحم الكل يارب
مرسلة من nesrine (رقم العضويه 21036) on :
allah yer7am abouk we yeghferlo we yesabrkom
kolshi bey3adi hata el waja3 be teb2a bas ezekra 7awel tetzaker el shi el 7elou
we li yeji men allah ahla we sahla fih ana kaman papa metwafi men wana 3indi 5 snine o la hala2 bas etzakaro awe ye7ki 7adan shi 3an abouh
be ydam3o 3youni la2ino ma chbe3to we ma betzakaro mni7
allah yer7am amwatna we yeghferlon ina lilah wa ini ilayhi raji3oun
مرسلة من { غـيـر الـنـآس } (رقم العضويه 17970) on :
الله يرحمه
مرسلة من 7aMoOoOoD (رقم العضويه 68050) on :
God I'm so sorry man i think one of the most dreadful and frustrating things in life is to lose a parent or a loved one
I can relate to your story, and i can totally understand what you feel or what you endure everyday jst because you didn't say good bye or i love you
i'm sure he knows you love him, and i'm sure it's never enuf whether you tell 'em when they're alive or dead that you love 'em, you'll always feel like you wanna say more .
one thing i believe in is that they 'll always be with us, you jst tell him whtever you want with ur prayers and am sure he'll hear you.
i loved the laast part, there's no point of sitting down and getting depressed, this is abs. not how you show ur love, you need to work and move on and to always remember him , cause that's life ,
at last i wanna say am so sorry for your loss man always keep a smile on ur face and always look at the bright side of life, even though it's a pretty hard thing to do sometimes.
مرسلة من [ Miss Star ] (رقم العضويه 15010) on :
omg am sorry for ur loss ,, i knwo sorry wont do u anything ,, and i know that we cant feel ur pain ,, its so hard to loose someone and i cant imagin how hard it is when its a family member may his soul rest in peace , am sure that he knows how much u love him dont worry parents always no u just make him proud and keep up the good way of thinking u have ,,
مرسلة من عليلو (رقم العضويه 41235) on :
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. Literally, I watched him take his last breath, gag, a low gurgle and that was it. I was just staring at him, unable to say anything. The rest of my family were able to say goodbye and "I love you", but all I could do was just stare and watch his lips turn blue and his face turn ashen white ![[rose]](graemlins/40.gif)
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thx nayef.
